You know how it is; you get all excited about things--new ideas, goals, projects-- just changes in general--and the next thing you know all the wind disappears from your sails and you are stalled. Becalmed. I am calling it a stutter. It's not that I have completely lost momentum, just that I took a break, and will have to refresh my memory of things I have learned before launching once again.
Ornery left on Thursday for a site trip in Clovis, NM. It has rained practically the entire time he has been gone with hardly any sunshine to speak of, either literally or metaphorically. I don't like that I am so dependent on his presence to pursue my path, but apparently I am. I got a lot done on Thursday, but the next three days were a bust and I have gotten nothing done. Nada. Zip. Zilch.
To add insult to injury, the Fiverr book cover designer I hired couldn't come up with any ideas for my book cover and asked to be released from her contract. So I even lost ground on that front. Where I thought I would have all this time to write and practice my homework for the courses I am taking, I really haven't accomplished a thing. Here it is Monday, and I am finding slightly more motivation, but I am so disappointed in myself. :(
Mother's Day was nice. Ryan called and we had a nice visit. Elizabeth came by and worked on her latest shawl. She is trying some new ideas, and if she wasn't trying to add additional fibers throughout the shawl, she could have been done. The fringe is on, and this shawl is stunning. I would photograph it, but I haven't been able to get a good light on it to show the colors. It is so far my favorite of the ones she has made.
The rain has finally cleared out for a couple of days, and left behind an unseasonably cool day, but at least the sun is out! I have already had my coffee and breakfast, listened to a coaching call and visited with Elizabeth. Getting ready to talk to Ornery, and hopefully he has good news like he is coming home today, but if not it should be tomorrow. I have another call at 1:00 and between times, I plan to do some homework. I am really not used to being so busy, and if I am brutally honest with myself, I really liked my life of leisure before I started all the courses. However, I am determined to make some headway into changing our future, and if that means a bit of discomfort, well, so be it. I think my lack of motivation is as much laziness as anything, and I need to just kick myself in the rear and get back on track.
I can do this.